Let's recap what I've been dealing with that has resulted in this decision:
My sister got in a car accident and crashed our family car.
Some of my co-workers have treated me like shit recently.
My daughter thinks I hate her.
My mother is having issues with her health.
My depression and anxiety has sky-rocketed, not to the point of getting committed twice in three months but pretty freaking close.
My finances are starting to look grim.
And to end this lovely list, I offended a new friend of mine without even trying, probably fucking up that connection along with many I've tried to make and have failed at recently.
These may seem like stupid reasons to go offline, but I'd rather not hear your judgement.
I'm at the point where I've been seeing my life crumble before my eyes with no way out. Yet I am always trying to promote positivity and joy. Fuck it!
No matter how hard I try to have joy or think everything is going right, I fuck it up. So, to avoid causing anymore casualties along the way, I'm avoiding everyone I know so that maybe I can just become a forgotten entity instead of a hated enemy.
So adios social media buddies. Until next time (who knows when that will be)
Sarah Jane R.
Oh girl keep your head up do what you must to get your life back on tract.
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